Thursday, March 22, 2012
Just me and my sea glass alone
Ok remember how in my last post it was going to be a quieter week on the blog well I guess I had something else to say. It's still been a quiet with the weather unusually warm like summer what a tease for us New Englanders because there is usually snow or cold weather in March not bathing suits and flip flops. So with weather like this into the car I go with a bag off to the beach becasue for me it's sea glass collecting season.
Notice how I said just me no kids. It's been some time that my husband and I have been living apart and the kids spend time with each of us. Today was the first time I think ever that I was at the beach alone (although did meet a friend for a little while) and coincidently I did run into my kids they were there too. Gave them a hug & kiss & smiles but then we parted ways just today and for a couple of more days. A very surreal moment but still a happy moment.
Happy to be away from them? Well this past March was probably the first time I had been away from kids aside from birthing babies at hospital. It was also the first in over 12 years that I have been alone. Alone with myself, my identity and my thoughts. I am quite different alone at 36 than 12 years ago. The math 36-12=24. Yikes that's a long time! It's getting to know me all over again and better for them when they return. I'd say it's a happy alone reaquainting with myself.
I have found that today was a good and some days maybe harder going forward but I can say I'm having amazing days (yes even with the kids) and that I'm truly living a life that is more of my authentic self.